Current Events

So last night I met a new friend at this place called the Beer Bar in NYC. Nona is her name and dangerously sexy is her game. Nona is 5'5", a mixture of caramel and cocoa flavor with a infectious smile. She calls me a baby because I am a few years younger than her. Nona doesn't realize that I am 73 inches of chocolate playground ..a cocoa jungle gym... a mahogany wonderland. She needed a new buddy to hang out with and I fit the bill. Besides if have read my previous blogs, I think I need to slow down. So we had drinks and appetizers and talk about relationships and what each one of us is looking for and so forth. She's had enough of NY and is thinking of going back to Cali. Too much drama and stress being a New Yorker and I tend to agree.

All in all it was a nice evening, talking to a grown ass woman without the extra bullshit that goes with it. We had such a nice time that I'll join her on a museum exhibit in Brooklyn. IT IS NOT A DATE. I actually like going to museums and there is a new exhibit that she hipped me to, so why not. I would like to think of myself as a well-rounded individual and going to museums keeps me that way. And to prove that point I will also be going to the NY Historical Society next week to view an exhibit on the impact slavery had in NY State. This event will be with my frat as well as the young men of Kendall Cottage. It's a half way house for trouble teens.

Tonight, I'll be in a lounge in the Village checking out my friend Bam Bam that's DJ'ing the spot. I also invited a nubian sister that is a friend of a friend. I'm not gonna say that she is the next victim or whatever. In a sense this is like a blind date yet I already know what she looks like due to the wonderful world of electronic mail. The verdict is still out on the pic that I have, some people take good picture while others don't. I am one of the people who do not photograph well (Shut up Slish). But I am looking forward to tonight so well see what happens.

She Don't Know Shiznit pt. 2

Can someone please tell me why Red Kryptonite keeps calling me. I told her that we can no longer see each other and she thinks that I was just putting her on timeout for what she said to me previously. She must be lonely or hard-up or both. She called me today at work with the usual bullshit chatter and then starts to explain that I am being mean and nasty to her by not wanting to see her anymore. She also stated that if I cared I would see her because when she doesn't see me she feels sad.

I was a Psych major in school and even though I do not have a Masters or a PhD in the field I can safely say that she is C-R-A-Z-Y. Just my opinion. She keeps bringing up the picture of a girl that is in my phone. A really young girl named Rice Cracka (Asian/White). Rice is young enough to be my younger brother's girlfriend (21yrs old). Not answering my phone when she calls and calling her back when I chose to she feels that I am out doing dirty business.

This woman is certifiable she has no clue what to do in a relationship when the focus is not completely on her. If she is not talking about herself or an outfit she is wearing or something trivial she has nothing to say. It's one of the reasons that I no longer want to see her. Then I get a voice mail message later on in the day telling me that she does not feel special and blah blah blah. Do I need to mention again that she wanted to date other people anyway. I should just ignore her calls completely but I want to introduce her to Mr. Venom so she can really see what mean and nasty really. I'll try and not curse her out but I won't guarantee it. I got enough going through my head right now and I don't need her insecurities.

This Feeling Stinks

I learned at 6:35am that another good soul has left Earth. Mr. B is my stepmother's father. A quiet, gentle and funny man who treated me as if I was own blood grandson. I think the saying goes that bad things happens in three's which doesn't bode well for for my psyche. This really stinks. I know some people say that they move on to a better place and all, but I think if that was ever said to me after losing a parent suddenly I would punch them in the face. You can't always say or do the right things when someone passes. There is no manual. Sometimes it's just best to be quiet and hold that person and remind them that they have someone that is there for them. Sometimes I get so tired, I would like there to a month where I wake up feeling refreshed, alert and looking forward to the new day. There are days when the sun shines on this dog's ass and then there are other days that someone up above is just pissing on my parade.
I have never heard the cry that came from my stepmom like I did this morning. And I swear as soon as I heard it I almost knew what happened. That is not something I ever want to hear again. I can only imagine what my younger brother is feeling. He was very close to his Grandfather. I don't know whether or not I can make down to the funeral in Alabama but out of respect I will give it a try.

She Don't Know Shiznit

So I was supposed to go to a two parties Saturday night with Red Kyrptonite. Kinda like a meet and greet type situations. The first party was in Queens and the second being in Manhattan. The second party is where my attention will go.

This party is apparently a superficial party where its all about whats on the outside and not what's on the inside. This clearly isn't my type of scene but I said I would go anyway. So all week she has been getting on my nerves about what I am going to where because this is a "Black" party where people there will be wearing all black. I don't own a black shirt and as some of you may know not all black shirts match all black pants.

I found out about the party on either Monday or Tuesday and the party was in the upcoming Saturday. So I had a very limited time to find a shirt for this party, a shirt that I liked. Red Kryptonite wanted to go with me to make sure a pick out the "right" shirt. The problem didn't come when she ask if she could go with me to pick out a shirt the problem came when she stated that there was a guy there that she used to date and she wanted to make sure that I had on the right outfit so "he" didn't think Red Kryptonite was dating a loser. WTF?!?!?!?!?

Did she just say what I think she just said?

(enter Venom) " I don't give a fuck what he or anybody else thinks, they don'y know me. Those muthafuckas can kiss my ass and if you don't like what it is I am saying you can stand in line and join them too". Apparently I have offended her with my statements. Fuck her. Early on I had told her that she is selfish and she corrected me and told me she was self-centered. Read a book dummy. 34 years old and she is truly clueless. It's shit like this that keeps the venom near and dear to my heart.

I wish I could do that back and forth but it's pointless because she doesn't live in reality and I am not in the mood to go take a trip to FantasyLand. All I can say to you is this I told her that we will no longer be seeing each other. Yet out of her mouth that is unacceptable and she wants to make a bargain. Bargain?!?!? The only thing you have left is a pussy and since I don't want the trouble of dealing with that this conversation is moot. Did I mention that she was planning on not continuing to see me seriously anyway? This broad is nutty and needs help.


To be continued.....

Chapter Invisible

This past weekend a founding member of my fraternity alumni chapter passed away. Smack was turning 81 years young this year. He and his family have been our neighbors for over twenty years. During the wake my fraternity has a burial ceremony that we do for a Brother that passes on to Chapter Invisible. It's approximately 15 minutes long and it is nice and respectful.

Funerals remind me of my mortality. Death is powerful and scares the hell out of me. I think what scares me the most about it is what happens to your "soul" afterwards. When I die what will happen to my soul? Do I even have a soul?

I will be the first to admit that I do not go to church, nor do I wear a cross to symbolize my belief in Christ. When I do go to church 9 out 10 times it is for my mother because she asks me to come along. And I do have to admit that sometimes I like the message that is told. But isn't it basically all the same....."Be good to one another". I do not need to go to church to hear or learn that. I know some people do go to church to recharge themselves because they are in the struggle everyday and need to hear those words to lift themselves up and move forward. We all need in some way, shape or form need encouraging from time to time.

I think the reason why I do not go is because I don't "feel" what it is I am hearing. I've seen people cry out, shout out and damn near pass out through the words of the Bible. And this next statement I know I will catch hell for but...How do we know the Bible is even true"? And if the Bible is true does that mean the Koran or the Torah is false? Go tell a Muslim or Jew that their respectful religions is false and see what happens. I asked somebody that question and I couldn't get a clear response on what made the Bible true.

I was at a black tie affair recently sitting with a gentleman that is currently enrolled in a School of Divinity. He stated that some of the things they discuss will make you question whether there is really a God. This guy is in school and he is learning things that brings God into question, whch I find ironic.

I know my thoughts are all over this one but it was just something that has been sticking in my mind today.

Marriage

Sitting here during my lunch hour and I have come to realization that I will never get married. I have zero patience for any woman that I have met after my relationship with The Bitch.

I was on the phone last night with my Mom and we were just catching up on things. Now prior to speaking to her, my Mom, I had called Kryptonite to see how her day went. She told me she would call me back in 20 minutes and when she did I was on the phone with my mother. I sent a text message to Kryptonite telling her that I would return the call when I finished speaking to my mother.

I got off the phone with my Mom about an hour later and called Kryptonite back. She then proceeded to tell ask me why would I call my mother when I knew she would be calling back in twenty minutes and then told me she was waiting for me to callback for a long time.

(Cue bad music)
(Cue announcer…This week’s episode on, “When Venom Attacks”, Red Kryptonite finds out first hand what not to say when Venom takes call from his Mom)

“ First of all Kryptonite my Mother called me I didn’t call her. I sent you a text message telling you I would call you back when I finished which is what I am doing now. I will not limit or short change my Mom on our weekly conversations especially since you already know how I feel about her”. Then I said “Is there anything else you want to bring to my attention”. Her response “No”. “ Is there a problem?”…I get another “No”. The I repeat myself in a even firmer tone “Is there a problem?” Her response is no again. She then tells me “ I don’t wanna talk about this anymore let’s just drop it.” I replied “ Fine, because if you keep talking you are going to dig yourself into a deeper hole”.

From that point she had heard enough and said that she will speak to me in the morning.

Just by what transpired above I really have no patience. There are, in honesty, only four maybe five women in my life that are wife material. Now it doesn't mean that I want to marry them, it just means that I recognize the good qualities in them that would make them good lifemates. All the others I have been in contact with through some way have found my one last good nerve and continue plucking it. I know my Mom so badly wants my to find a nice woman and settle down because of my previous experience but as Slish has repeatedly said “Nigga you’re just too bitter, you need to let go”.

Well needless to say I have not cut Kryptonite off yet. She sent a text message to me saying that she wants to kiss and make-up and last night she was only kidding about what she said. I know if I go over there tonight she will tell me that I was nasty to her and I made her so mad that she couldn’t get any sleep and whatever else is on her mind. While last night I slept damn near like a baby.

Marriage is not in the cards for me and who knows if it ever will be.

THE ONE

I believe there is always someone in a man and woman's life that forever holds a special place their heart no matter where they may be. I have one, my cousin Fat Dave, Bam Bam and I know my boy Slish even has one. The reason why we cannot be with them varies from person to person. For some its timing, for others its distance and for some it just maturity.

Mine goes by the name Miss Tiff. I met Tiff in college some years ago. We at one time were Biology Pre-Med majors so we shared a class or two together. Now the reason why I remember her from my Bio days is because she is very pretty and seemed to have a " fuck you" attitude on her face. Back then I wasn't Venom, I was Cornbred. Cornbred was a shy, quiet type that laid back in the cut just listening and observing but not like a stalker. Anyhow I had academic issues left school for a year and returned with a new attitude towards my studies as well as a new major. I guess you can say I was re-introduced to Miss Tiff through my "little sister" MC (Motor City). So by default we would be together through my connection with MC, studying , a little bit of partying but nothing crazy.

We graduated and I returned to NY while she went on to finish her Masters. We have kept in touch throughout the years and became very close friends. Discussing everything from sex, politics, relationships, family and etc. The reason why I say she is my ONE is how I am around her and how she makes me feel. I have always had a good time when i was with Miss Tiss. There has been times when I wanted Tiff as more than my friend but realistically speaking it couldn't happen. I would like to think it was mainly due to the distance(miles) between us. I have never gotten into an argument with Miss Tiff and I know its because we know what to say to piss each other off and we like each other too much to be enemies. Plus she has been educated in the dark arts of Venom sarcasm and revenge so it would be like teacher versus student. I honestly can say she is one of my most favorite people to be around.

There was a time though that I was pissed with her and when she reads this statement she will know what it is exactly about. She had found someone that held her attention and stimulated her intellect and married him. Now when I found out she was engaged I was shocked. I didn't even know she had a boyfriend. Initially I was invited to the wedding however when her and her fiance finished having a discussion they agreed not to invite people from their past even though I don't think she mentioned me in much detailed but I may be wrong about that. Now I didn't find out from Tiff, but from a mutual friend, B-More. Well B-More got an invitation and Venom didn't so it wasn't hard to put two and two together. I was truly hurt not because I was losing her to another man but hurt because this is my friend and I couldn't be there to see her get married and she initially couldn't tell me at first. Since then she has profusely apologized and even is now divorced from that The Asshole (whoopee). We have been and will continue to be each other confidants. Due to our relationships with our significant others we did not speak as freely as we used to. She didn't mention her husband , The Asshole and I didn't mention my fiancee The Bitch. We just talked about ourselves. But when we were freed from those dummies is was just like old times and we have stayed in constant contact ever since

Today at work she confirmed yet again why she is The One. I was on the phone with Miss Tiff, as we speak every other day now and somehow we started talking about ringtones. She asked me what do I think my ringtone was and me ,out of Venom mode, responded "I don't think I wanna know....Okay tell me". She said that my ringtone is "All I Need" by Method Man feat. Mary J Blige. I've known her long off enough to know she is not bullshitting me on this.

This post is dedicated to Miss Tiff. She is a beautiful, smart, strong and sensitive black woman. Also I need to include that she is sexy as hell. She holds a special place in my heart and always will. I can say that she is one my best friends and without hesitation I can say that I love her. If there was a way I could give her the world I would because she deserves it. She's my future ex-wife, my Mary J and I hope that 2006 brings her love, happiness and prosperity. I love you baby.

Venom

THE NEW YEAR

So what's your New Years revolution?

Mine? I am trying to get myself into a better paying position and better shape as well. The better paying position has to happen because I got word from my job on how much my salary will be adjusted when moving to NC. I will be losing 25% of my pay for the move. How the hell did they come to that figure? I crunched numbers all different kinds of ways and still could not come up with that amount. HR at my company is crazy, so now I need to find a different position inside the company or look else where outside the company. This truly sucks because I just started this position a year ago. My manager, Dicky Cocksucker, is a god damn prick. I had a talk with him about the NC move prior to getting the number and he had the nerve to say to me that I am not committed to the position because I may not want to accept the pay reduction. Then he goes to tell me that teachers make less pay then what I am making. You asshole I am not a teacher, I have a series 7 and 63 licenses. I have consecutive successful years in the banking and finance industry. Being a teacher is a noble profession but do not compare what I do versus what a teacher does.

As far as the better shape part I have been lifting weights twice a week and I will get into an exercise class when I return to work. I've been noticing a little pouch growing and I address that. Also I need to be even more aggressive when saving money. I have been doing good so far but I need to step it up a bit as well as pay down this credit card I have. God only knows how it got up as high as it did but the balance is what it is and I have to deal with it.

Some say that the New Years is time to reflect, to try change new things and change old things. Before there was Venom there was another guy name Cornbred. Cornbred was just like the food always good no matter what time of time.

Will there be a return of Cornbred in 2006?.......Probably not but it will be interesting to see if Venom survives another year.